JCovenant or transactional? What kind of relationship do I have with God? That question kept me thinking for the past few days!
In the story of Jacob he made a pact with God. He partners up with God. I like that kind of thought! The question is do I have that kind of relationship with God? Do I even know how to?
I grew up with a typical form of transactional relationships. If I would do this or that, I get something in return. That made me look for people who would benefit me. But also what could I do to benefit them? At times I just did stuff for other people and just forgot about myself and when I needed something or someone nobody was around. That left me dissapointed over and over again.
Then I met God and I felt a love that I can't describe. But my behavior wasn't different. I wanted to please Him in every kind of way and build a relationship with Him. And I also thought that I would be blessed by doing all the right things. So dissapointment kicked in again. At first at God and later at myself! I later realized I needed to change something in my way of thinking. God wants to have a relationship with me and loves me no matter what! Ok but how do I want that relationship to be? I want a pact-kind relationship. So God is my buddy. That was my way of binding with God. I could yell at Him, share my frustrations with Him and He still loves me! Wow, that's an other dimension of a relationship. You don't do things to get something out of it. You do things to please the other, just because you love the other unconditionally.
So to answer the question... I believe that I have a covenant relationship with God. He is my buddy! And it maybe sound weird because He's God and I'm just human... But you know what? That is what He made me for! To be His buddy!
